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Her Drug Addiction Tore Apart Her Family | Women In Prison: Real Talk


I AM NOT PROUD, BY ANY MEANS,
OF THE THINGS THAT I HAVE DONE. I THINK IT’S MY APPENDIX. I DON’T HAVE
AN APPENDIX ANYMORE. IT DIDN’T NEED
TO BE REMOVED, BUT I WAS ABLE
TO MAKE THEM THINK I WAS IN THAT MUCH PAIN. OKAY, JUST BECAUSE I KNOW
THE PAIN IS EXCRUCIATING, THESE ARE EXTREMELY STRONG —
NO MORE THAN ONE OR TWO A DAY, IF YOU CAN’T HANDLE
THE PAIN ANYMORE. STRONGER THAN WHAT
I GAVE YOU THE LAST TIME. OKAY. I FAKED PROBLEMS
JUST TO HAVE THE SURGERY TO GET THE PAIN PILLS. OH, THANK YOU. YEAH. ABSOLUTELY. THANK YOU SO MUCH. IN TERMS OF MY CHRISTIANITY,
I FELL FAR FROM GRACE. I COULDN’T EVEN LOOK
AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR. THERE’S SO MANY THINGS
I’M SO… EMBARRASSED BY. I LEAVE IN 36 DAYS, AND I’M NOT THE SAME PERSON
I WAS A YEAR AGO. I’M NOT THE SAME PERSON
I WAS FIVE YEARS AGO. I’M TAKING IT
REALLY SERIOUSLY. WHAT’S UP? WANTED TO TALK TO YOU SOME MORE
ABOUT GOING HOME. OKAY. YOU KNOW, I’M GONNA BE
RELEASED IN 36 DAYS. I FEEL LIKE IT’S GONNA BE
A HUGE STEP INTO THE UNKNOWN. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SEE
MY SON BEFORE HE’S 18, I JUST DON’T KNOW
HOW TO GO ABOUT IT. WELL, THERE’S YOUR MOTIVATION. IF HE’S WILLING
TO LET YOU IN, YOU SHOULD DEFINITELY
MAKE THAT A PRIORITY. OKAY. I DON’T WANT HIM
TO SEE ME IN SEPTEMBER, AND JUST TURN HIS BACK ON ME.
I DON’T WANT THAT. I — I WANT HIM TO SAY,
“WOW. MY MOM’S AWESOME.” [ LAUGHS ] IN ORDER FOR YOU
TO STAY OUT OF HERE, AND NOT COME BACK AND SEE US,
YOU NEED TO DO THAT. IF I DON’T,
THIS IS GONNA BE HOME. Woman: I THINK IT’S FAIR TO SAY
THAT OFFENDERS CAN BE VERY APPREHENSIVE
ABOUT LEAVING. HER BIGGEST STRUGGLES
ARE GONNA BE TRYING TO REPAIR THAT RELATIONSHIP
WITH HER SON. AND I JUST HOPE
SHE STAYS WITH IT, AND KEEPS TRYING TO PROVE
THAT SHE IS GONNA BE A GOOD MOM TO HIM. FOR ME, CHURCH PLAYS A VERY
IMPORTANT PART OF MY FAITH. ♪♪ I DO NOT ATTEND CHURCH
HERE IN PRISON, BECAUSE WOMEN DO GO TO CHURCH
HERE IN PRISON TO SIN, YES. YOU WITNESS WOMEN
GOING TO MEET OTHER WOMEN. I PREFER TO LET
THE HOLY SPIRIT SPEAK TO ME, AND JUST TELL ME
WHAT HE WANTS TO TELL ME. BEING IN PRISON DEFINITELY
TESTS MY FAITH — DEFINITELY. I’VE HAD SOME THINGS HAPPEN
WHILE I WAS HERE THAT I COULDN’T
GO THROUGH AGAIN. I WAS ASSAULTED BY
SOMEBODY IN MY ROOM THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE
A TRUSTED FRIEND. IT WAS ALL BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT I
TOLD ON HER FOR DOING SOMETHING SHE WASN’T SUPPOSED TO BE DOING
IN ANOTHER ROOM. AND I WAS KNOCKED
UNCONSCIOUS. IT WAS NOT A GOOD SCENE. I FEEL LIKE, IN MY LIFE, IF I COULD GO BACK
AND DO IT ALL AGAIN, I WOULD. AND I WOULD DO IT
SO DIFFERENT. I WAS NOW SEPARATED
FROM DARRELL. MIKEY WAS LIVING WITH HIM. I NEEDED THOSE DRUGS TO NUMB,
AND NOT FEEL NOT HAVING MY SON. THE PAIN PILLS WERE
DEFINITELY MY DEMON. I GOT REALLY GOOD,
AND MASTERMINDED BEING A DRUG ADDICT. THE FINAL SCAM
THAT GOT ME IN HERE WAS GOING TO
DIFFERENT DENTISTS. WHY IS THIS TAKING
SO LONG? WHERE’S THE DENTIST? THE NURSE WHO CHECKED ME IN
RECOGNIZED ME FROM BEING THERE BEFORE,
UNDER A DIFFERENT LAST NAME. SO, SHE CALLED A LOCAL
POLICE OFFICER ABOUT IT…. ♪♪ …AND I GOT CAUGHT. WHAT’S GOING ON? MY SON WAS EVERYTHING TO ME — IS EVERYTHING TO ME. I DON’T FEEL
I WAS A BAD MOTHER. I FEEL I MADE SOME BAD CHOICES
FOR MYSELF, AND FOR MY FUTURE
WITH MY SON, YES. ♪♪ THE LAST TIME
I SAW HIS FACE, HE WAS 6 YEARS OLD,
AND HE’S 17 NOW. THERE’S SO MANY THINGS
THAT I DON’T KNOW ABOUT HIM. I WANT TO JUST TELL HIM HOW MUCH
I ADORE HIM, AND LOVE HIM, AND HOW, EVERY BIRTHDAY,
I THINK OF HIM. I AM GRATEFUL THAT GOD HAS
PROTECTED HIM THE WAY HE HAS. I HOPE HE KNOWS HE DID NOTHING
WRONG OR HE’S PERFECT. IT’S ME THAT’S FLAWED,
AND I’M THE ONE WITH THE ISSUES. I’M GONNA DO
WHATEVER IT TAKES TO SEE HIM. ♪♪ I FEEL LIKE
I’VE DONE MY TIME. I’VE DONE A LOT OF THINGS
WITH THE TIME THAT I SERVED. I’VE LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF
WHILE I WAS HERE — HOW TO INTERACT WITH PEOPLE
THAT ARE HATEFUL. I HAVE NO ROOM
FOR THEM IN MY LIFE, EXCEPT FOR
TO PRAY FOR THEM. I’M GOING TO THE LAUNDRY
AND PACK-OUT AREA, WHERE I GET TO GIVE THEM
THEIR CLOTHES BACK, AND JUST KEEP AN OUTFIT
TO WEAR DOWN HERE TOMORROW. AND I GET TO PICK OUT
STREET CLOTHES, SO I CAN WALK OUT OF THE PRISON
IN NORMAL CLOTHES INSTEAD OF
A PRISON UNIFORM. HOW ARE YOU,
MISS WHITE? I’M READY. I’M TURNING IN
MY STATE STUFF — STATE CLOTHING AND STUFF —
THAT I DON’T NEED. YOU STILL HAVE
YOUR PERSONAL EYEGLASSES? NO. THEY BROKE. BIBLE, YOU DID HAVE. MM-HMM. SEVERAL THINGS
I’D LIKE TO DO. THE MAIN THING I WANT
TO DO IS BE ABLE TO GO OUT THERE
AND SEE MY SON. NO. I’M GONNA DO EVERYTHING I CAN
TO MAKE UP FOR EVERY SECOND THAT I’VE MISSED WITH HIM. OKAY, WE’RE GONNA GET YOU SOME
CLOTHES TO WEAR OUT OF HERE, SO YOU DON’T HAVE TO WEAR
A PRISON UNIFORM. I KNOW THAT IT’S NOT
GONNA BE ALL PERFECT, BUT WE’RE GONNA
HAVE OUR MOMENT. OKAY. THAT LOOKS LIKE
IT MIGHT FIT. THEY’LL BE READY FOR YOU
TO WEAR OUT. OKAY. THANK YOU. I AM ABOUT
TO GO GET CHANGED IN MY STREET CLOTHES,
SO I CAN GO HOME. -STEP ALL THE WAY BACK THERE.
-YEAH. -OUT HERE —
-YEAH. GOOD LUCK. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
APPRECIATE IT. I’VE HURT SO MANY PEOPLE
ALONG THE WAY — MOST OF ALL, MY SON. WHETHER HE’S 7 OR 17, HE’S STILL MY BABY BOY,
AND HE’S STILL MY WHOLE WORLD. HOPEFULLY, MY PAST
ISN’T GOING TO MATTER. AND I’M GONNA DO
EVERYTHING I CAN TO REPAIR THE RELATIONSHIP
WITH MY SON, IF IT TAKES ME
FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

12 Comments

  1. Kofgm1 Zxc
    Kofgm1 Zxc October 4, 2019

    Noooo

  2. Shelby Register RN
    Shelby Register RN October 4, 2019

    Awe I hope her son at least considers some contact with her πŸ’•

  3. Anne Bell
    Anne Bell October 4, 2019

    I hope she meets her Son and they hit it off together. Big hugs. Life is too short to waste whatever they have left. ❀

  4. Rainy Day
    Rainy Day October 4, 2019

    It's so sad what opiates have done to our people and our country. I was where she was. I didn't go to prison, but I had a surgery to get pills. I've been clean now for a while, but it still bothers me that a pill can have such an effect on a person's mind and life.

  5. Tammy Ruggles
    Tammy Ruggles October 4, 2019

    When I was a social worker (I'm now a writer), I worked with several clients who would do similar things. One would go have a tooth pulled to get pain meds. Another complained of terrible back problems. And a few others had Munchausen's, where they'd make themselves sick just to go to the doctor, for attention and sympathy, however, not necessarily medication. Some people turn their lives around and some don't. It all depends on the person and how badly they want to change. It's really hard on the children, though.

  6. lily blu
    lily blu October 4, 2019

    I'm worried that all shes talking about is about the relationship w her son & no specific goals for herself. I hope he is open to a relationship but if not that she stays strong & continues w her sobriety.

  7. Levi O. Olson
    Levi O. Olson October 4, 2019

    nonviolent addicts don't deserve to be separated from their families for 10+ years.

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    Tren dbol deca clen anavar dmaa Hey it me October 4, 2019

    πŸ˜’πŸ˜’πŸ˜’βœβœβœβœ jesus save

  9. Number One
    Number One October 5, 2019

    Opiates are and have been a huge pain reliever for me. I always knew of their potential for abuse. Every medication that you are prescribed is YOUR responsibility to know everything about it. Why would you not find out exactly what it is? Before the internet, you always had the ability to investigate anything!
    You are responsible for yourself. Know your limitations.

  10. Samsng Device
    Samsng Device October 5, 2019

    God is imaginary
    God does not exist

    Watch this inspiring youtube video. https://youtu.be/vkXOwBIRX7Y
    Top 10 reasons the bible is repulsive.
    Thanks!

  11. Fenlan1233
    Fenlan1233 October 5, 2019

    Her sentence was outrageous/. She needed rehab not prison.. this is a crime against her and her son… I’m happy she s clean.. but she could have gotten clean another way .. and still have a life with her son.

  12. Jinja Kween
    Jinja Kween October 6, 2019

    What exactly sent her to prison?! That's a harsh sentence!

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