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The unseen face of meth use

“Methamphetamine –” “This is what i do to motivate myself, a little
bit.” “A drug that was also known for a while
as redneck cocaine. “A little bit … Rrrah.” Dr. Perry Halkitis: “Believed to be only used by hicks in rural areas. They use it, but so do gay men in urban centers.” Courtney: “– a lot of people use it for
sex –” “As a way of sort of enhancing their lives,
enhancing their partying.” “But no I do it, and I channel my inner
passions. So here we go, lets turn up.” Over 11 million Americans have tried meth
at least once. “You ready world?” “My name is Courtney, I’m 29.” The same data says that 440,000 were last-month
users. But this is all data from 2012. It’s use is likely still on the rise, according
to DEA meth seizure data. “I am a functioning drug addict.” “There we go.” Crystal Meth is extremely addictive, and Courtney
has been addicted for 5 years. “Would you like to get the booty bump on camera
too? ” And use among gay men happens at a higher
rate than other users. “It’s very difficult to try to get our hands
on what proportion of gay men are actually using meth, but I think it’s safe to say based
on a cross-section of the studies that have been published, gay men are overrepresented
in the population of methamphetamine users. That’s called a health disparity in public
health research.” “With this drug, what it’s known for is bringing
out the uninhibitedness of your inner, like, sex beast, I guess you could say.” And it’s not exactly a secret in the gay community.
There’s actually a term for it – Party and play, or PNP. “To describe the association between engaging
in sex and using drugs.” “Nine times out of ten it is meth when you’re
‘partying.'” “The reason that meth use allows individuals
to stay up for two days or three days and have marathon sex is because its speed. ” Meth has been seen as a causing factor of
HIV, but Dr. Halkitis’ research and Courtney’s experience suggest something more complicated
is happening. “I felt I’ve been gay since I was like two
or three. I would dress up in my gradmother’s high heels, and put on my grandmother’s dresses.” Growing up, Courtney was rejected by his father
and turned to sex chat lines in search of a male mentor. I’ve been having sex since I was
like 12 with grown men. He said he had slept with over 50 people, half adult men, by the
age of 14. “That’s abuse, that’s sexual abuse.” By 21 years old, Courtney found out he was
HIV-positive. And three years later, he tried meth for the first time. “I was 24 years old, in Atlanta, Georgia,
I had broken up with my ex, I found out I was HIV-positive. It’s like nothing mattered
to me. I wanted to get away, I wanted to take my mind off of me being positive. It took
the hurt away. In the most part.” In a 2014 study, Dr. Halkitis found that 65%
of HIV-positive men started using meth a few years contracting the disease. Halkitis: “There’s a theory that argues
the higher number of memberships in minority groups you have, the more likely you are to
have health consequences. Because you are living in a society that discriminates against
you, or stigmatizes you because of your race, because of your sexual orientation, because
of your HIV status, and because of your economic needs. And taken together those four factors
create a reality for someone that is not a particularly nice reality. And so methamphetamine
provides a very quick and easy escape from day-to-day living.” After 5 years, Courtney is finally telling
family members about his addiction and trying to stop. “It just took until now for him to really come out to let us know. So
basically now, like I said, it’s just doing more things on helping him quit.” But of course, quitting and staying clean
is a struggle. The typical treatment for meth addition is behavioral therapy. Basically, Alcoholics Anonymous for
meth. And at the park with his cousin, Courtney bumped into a former heroin addict who had
similar advice. “September 4th. 7 years. How long for you
— oh, are you — ” “I’m currently using.” “It’s uh, an everyday, — uh — a process.” “Yeah man. That’s why meetings. Even just
talking to people who have a similar problem is it. It’s an [isolating] disease Being clean
is the greatest, the best thing that ever happened to me.” “Sobriety is something you gotta want to do.
You gotta wanna be sober. You gotta wanna take those steps to move forward and have a functioning life. Drugs, they ruin
people, they ruin lives. Do you want to get sober? “Of course. I will get sober. Not wanting
to. I will. Again.”


  1. Frau Star
    Frau Star March 19, 2019

    People do it because they are depresseed?

  2. Mojtaba Univers
    Mojtaba Univers March 20, 2019

    We have this drug in iraq its so cheep even wiskey more expensive and i smoke this druge cince 7 years ago but with time you will lose the joy of it Who smoke meth let like to me the arabic guy was here

  3. Cassidy N.
    Cassidy N. March 25, 2019

    The narrator sounds like David dobrik if he grew up

  4. Nefariøus Irls
    Nefariøus Irls March 31, 2019

    Unseen face of meth use: Ur gay lol

  5. Joy Mcquade
    Joy Mcquade April 1, 2019

    I never used meth before but my pain doctor got angry with me and stopped my pain pills just like that. Motorcycle so I tried to get with other doctors and they didn't want to see me they said I had too much going on. So I ended up using the math for the pain. It works amazingly. But I don't want to be doing this forever so hopefully I will find some pain doctor to help me and I will be able to stop.

  6. Asrath Qathreth
    Asrath Qathreth April 1, 2019

    Not gonna lie, I love PnP!!! I know it can be harmful but it feels so good when you slam… Just thinking of it makes me wanna go get tweaked right now 😉

  7. God Troller
    God Troller April 1, 2019

    Crystal Meth Rap Music

  8. Justin Andrews
    Justin Andrews April 7, 2019

    We all have problems. We should take responsibility for our lives and not retreat into quick fixes like meth and alcohol. I’ve done the same. I’m not innocent. I just know what I need to do… thoughts and prayers are appreciated. Thanks 🙏

  9. Alexa Smith
    Alexa Smith April 8, 2019

    Wait so that gay guy is HIV positive and uses meth daily to have sex with other men and spread this horrific disease ?! WTF

  10. Dylan webb
    Dylan webb April 10, 2019

    Got that lv

  11. Maia Jones
    Maia Jones April 24, 2019

    This not a laughing matter, drug abuse isn't something to joke about .please just say no to drugs folks, don't ever try any type of drugs

  12. Trivial Reflex
    Trivial Reflex April 29, 2019

    Wow the doc is so incredible sexy.

  13. ARSEN exe
    ARSEN exe May 2, 2019

    that makes gay people even more gay

  14. S Harrison
    S Harrison May 2, 2019

    Always making the black man the face of everything negative,,,,,some of us know the truth

  15. Limit Masaki
    Limit Masaki May 4, 2019

    If u do meth, you gay.

  16. ashley778909
    ashley778909 May 5, 2019

    Anyone know if he's okay? Hope he's sober now

  17. Kees Kees
    Kees Kees May 6, 2019

    Supplements 5htp tyrosine

  18. tweedy Gonzalez
    tweedy Gonzalez May 7, 2019

    I'mma tell you seriously meth kills it turned my boyfriend inside out please please stay away it's deadly ..they use to say crack kills SMH No…meth takes over and kills ….Trust !!!!!

  19. Funks
    Funks May 7, 2019

    That’s fucken gross. 1. Meth 2. He’s gay. That’s gay and nasty

  20. Mike David
    Mike David May 18, 2019

    When you go into the darkness so deep whether it's knowingly or unknowingly it's not easy to get back out.

    But it is possible I haven't done meth in 28 years

  21. Ronnie Roberts
    Ronnie Roberts May 21, 2019

    Just my personal opinion, but I kinda wish they didn't have to use a stereotypical gay man for this interview. There are LOTS of gay and bisexual men who act and dress opposite of this fellow. Unfortunately, they are not the ones mainstream audiences imagine when they think of gay sex, and continuing to give us the stereotype does NOT help.

  22. Jew Hunter
    Jew Hunter May 23, 2019

    Stop listening as soon as the race discrimination talk started – quit pushing that fake narrative

  23. Dana Moradi
    Dana Moradi May 24, 2019

    Meth is gay

  24. Flipzy
    Flipzy May 25, 2019

    If I do meth I turn gay

  25. Lamuel Dagon
    Lamuel Dagon May 29, 2019

    If you're on it and you start seeing faces everywhere,you need to stop immediately.If you continue you will start hearing voices that criticise you 24/7. You will need antipsychotics and to come off the drug altogether.

  26. Johnnie James
    Johnnie James May 29, 2019

    PnP is the worst of type of gay men most of them can't get hard and they're reckless but the way the system is set up it makes it so much easier for them to get off than hetereo people.

  27. babadook trying to hook
    babadook trying to hook June 6, 2019

    Avoid meth and math, they're both dangerous.

    JETPACK JONES June 6, 2019

    Shoulda stuck to molly

  29. Merci Tøkaji
    Merci Tøkaji June 10, 2019

    Meth is the best

  30. Walter White
    Walter White June 12, 2019

    Don't listen to them! Just consume my purest meth.

  31. Karabo Malete
    Karabo Malete June 18, 2019

    So touching.

  32. rodriguezccg
    rodriguezccg June 22, 2019

    At the end i can see pain😞..he tried to hide it with a laugh

  33. trance212
    trance212 June 23, 2019

    That Courtney dude looks and sounds like a toxic loser.

  34. J B
    J B June 25, 2019

    Good lord it is funny how it works like Darwinism.

  35. Mike Hunt
    Mike Hunt June 27, 2019

    That's just sad. What a waste of life.

  36. TAREQ Islam
    TAREQ Islam June 28, 2019

    Muslims are the healthiest people

  37. Chris Mayhew
    Chris Mayhew July 2, 2019

    I am glad I dont use that stuff anymore! the only thing I mess with is weed and thats it

  38. Byron Poliah
    Byron Poliah July 3, 2019

    This guy is 29 and looks like 50

  39. Byron Poliah
    Byron Poliah July 3, 2019

    That former heroin addict guy looks like he regrets getting sober

  40. BadLeo612
    BadLeo612 July 5, 2019

    I have some right now.

  41. Dirk Bravo; Lead singer 10 foot screws
    Dirk Bravo; Lead singer 10 foot screws July 5, 2019

    it's really on the individual to let it end up ruining your life. I mean I take it in moderation usually for my shifts11-12 hour shifts at work that is really physically demanding or recreationally once or twice a week. My bills are paid, I have a roof over my head. I don't know I just hate that stigma that all users are burn out losers. My 2 cents.

  42. Skull black knight troop
    Skull black knight troop July 7, 2019

    This is why drugs are silent killers

  43. sophie brown
    sophie brown July 10, 2019

    I just wanna hug him. What a beautiful human being and I wish I could do more to support him!

  44. ISuckAtGaming
    ISuckAtGaming July 12, 2019

    1 month clean 🙂

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  46. Felton godfre
    Felton godfre July 16, 2019

    Im clean for 5 month. Im keep praying. And stay clean sometimes i they still come and dream. Pray for me

  47. Flyguy182
    Flyguy182 July 16, 2019

    Catchy title but its inaccurate

  48. Mr. Queen
    Mr. Queen July 17, 2019

    meth and the left go hand in hand . < 3

  49. Ari Maulana
    Ari Maulana July 20, 2019

    Pasar Gelap di Geser Ke Pasar Terang (Pajak Negara).

  50. HellsKat123456789
    HellsKat123456789 July 22, 2019

    This is bs

  51. Lucas Araujo
    Lucas Araujo July 22, 2019

    What’s the difference between Meth and Crystal Meth? I never used any drugs, but it’s good to know about it more so we can help others that struggle with that.

  52. Pall Woods
    Pall Woods July 25, 2019

    Aa for meth. Its called na or cma

  53. 龘鱈鍵
    龘鱈鍵 July 25, 2019

    I get high on coffee and I can't stop. I also can't imagine what meth is like.

    JOHN PETTY July 28, 2019

    So ………………. did he ever get "clean" or ……..????

  55. Forid Khan
    Forid Khan July 28, 2019

    Deffo Bent!

  56. Kiki Pacheco
    Kiki Pacheco July 30, 2019

    420 all the way sister

  57. Andrew Mack
    Andrew Mack August 1, 2019

    Sad, hope he does it.

  58. MyTwoCents
    MyTwoCents August 1, 2019

    Everyone knows meth is bad for you. If you decide to pick up Meth as a habit, then you either break it or it breaks you. Welcome to real life. No sympathy from me at all.

  59. Potato Chip
    Potato Chip August 2, 2019

    Repent sinners

  60. Haley B
    Haley B August 4, 2019

    National help please call 18006624357 it's never too late. I am with you! Please share!

  61. Geoffrey Moran
    Geoffrey Moran August 5, 2019

    I'm addicted to klonopin.

  62. Youpo1
    Youpo1 August 5, 2019


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    124125326 August 13, 2019


  64. nishio Savage
    nishio Savage August 14, 2019

    Imagine doing hard drugs to feel better💀 Couldnt be me💀💀

  65. Christian Gallien
    Christian Gallien August 15, 2019

    I've never known a meth addict who has ever had a sobriety lasting any length of time.. actually accept they will never get that high again.. It's a compelling high, I must say.

  66. angela mendoza
    angela mendoza August 16, 2019

    All sorts of drugs destroy lives and any kids who is watching this or youth please do not run to this kind of garbage the high only lasts for a bit but if you get professional and just let out whatever is eating you for years that's the best thing to do I never hold grudgesaccepting the things we cannot change and enjoying our are brighter future be strong.💪

  67. A Boy Plays
    A Boy Plays August 18, 2019

    Just to start the video methanphetamine

  68. Bill Talker
    Bill Talker August 23, 2019

    This dude's name is Courtney. I'd be using drugs too

  69. Bill Talker
    Bill Talker August 23, 2019

    This guys theory on "prejudice" caused meth addiction is debunk when you see how many white people are on it. Just another way to play the "victim" card.

  70. Konstantinos Kalachanis
    Konstantinos Kalachanis August 25, 2019

    Thanks for the stereotype Vox

  71. chaparrita boo
    chaparrita boo August 27, 2019

    My boyfriend is addicted to meth and I dont know how to help him anymore I'm trying to be strong for him but I feel like I'm losing my mind

  72. sapper made
    sapper made August 27, 2019

    I feel bad for this guy ….. hope he gets clean

  73. Daniel Daniel
    Daniel Daniel August 28, 2019

    First time I did meth was with a Mexican chick. Never felt so good in my life. Later on did it for like 3 months straight. Felt totally overrated.

    It's not as bad as people make it out to be. Trust me people.

  74. Andy Miller
    Andy Miller August 30, 2019

    Dan montemurro of Pittsburgh Kansas is a huge dealer

  75. Pablo Wancho
    Pablo Wancho September 3, 2019

    🤔Does drinking tea or working out on a daily basis removes the effect in your body and mind? Thank you everyone ✔

  76. J. H.
    J. H. September 3, 2019

    No sores. Thought they all had open wounds after that long of use from the chemicals within the stuff??

  77. my name is chicka chicka slim
    my name is chicka chicka slim September 6, 2019

    He died!

  78. sativa Grow420
    sativa Grow420 September 6, 2019

    Druga are your free use me
    Just lsd

  79. Billy Highfill
    Billy Highfill September 7, 2019

    Your name is David.

  80. Tyler Whitfield
    Tyler Whitfield September 7, 2019

    With a name like Courtney what did you expect no offense

  81. Abra Kadabra
    Abra Kadabra September 8, 2019

    One of my friends told me, this stuff ain't gonna do anything.
    I am not sorry for what I'm gonna say in my comment, it's about time death proved him wrong.
    Since he didn't care, I don't care.
    Yes, he used crystal meth and he's dead.

  82. Gerardo Guevara
    Gerardo Guevara September 10, 2019

    Honestly i wanna try meth

  83. Alvin Reaper
    Alvin Reaper September 11, 2019

    Was on meth every day for One year, Quit Cold, And its been 3 years this Aug for my Sobriety.
    Im Going Through bad things, and Researching it again, After 3 years Sober… I still Dream about that High.

    Never Do Meth, I'll stay Sober, But God it is hard to this Day.

  84. Jaseenth Rje
    Jaseenth Rje September 13, 2019

    how to mek this

  85. John Kristiansson
    John Kristiansson September 16, 2019

    So basically as long as you’re a minority, you can always blame society for neglecting you. Great.

  86. Alventura De la Cruz
    Alventura De la Cruz September 17, 2019

    Drugs are waste of time

  87. austin s.
    austin s. September 17, 2019

    …..silently aware of abused addiction of ice…..

  88. Alika Nuriev
    Alika Nuriev September 17, 2019

    I'm 18 and i have never used any type of drug. Does not matter meth, cocaine or alcohol. Never have done it! But i don't know why, past 2 months been i want to use a drug. I got high interest in that. I don't know why. What's your suggestions? Which one has best experiences or which one is the worst? Meth? Cocaine? Heroin?

  89. Gabriel Garibay
    Gabriel Garibay September 19, 2019


  90. Shush22
    Shush22 September 22, 2019

    His name is Courney, no wonder he does meth

  91. Sam Afgan
    Sam Afgan September 26, 2019

    I was addicted to meth then my plug went away and all the meth I could ever find was garbage looked like good shards but didn’t seem to actually have any meth in it at all but that lack of being able to find a quality product saved me and I’ve been clean 2 years now. If I lived in the west coast instead of east I’d probably have a much harder time staying clean.

  92. Gaurav Bisht
    Gaurav Bisht September 28, 2019

    real que….
    is Blue colour meth real???
    (hisenberg drug)

  93. Morgan Woodward
    Morgan Woodward October 2, 2019

    I hope he's okay now.

  94. Anthony Ferraro
    Anthony Ferraro October 2, 2019

    This drug is evil 👿

  95. connor mclean
    connor mclean October 2, 2019

    I feel that everyone is entitled to their own choices and it's a shame I think to see the opposing view always shooting drugs down. I feel everyone should take drugs if they want to at their own pace. It's not a bad thing, it's up to the individual. Not me or the news or the scientists but the person. If the person knows the risks involved and still continues then that's his choice. Every man for themself.

  96. Tomorow Lucky
    Tomorow Lucky October 2, 2019

    Vn điểm danh

  97. karlfritz47
    karlfritz47 October 2, 2019

    I did it a few times..lucky i just walked away from it..but i wont lie..that high was like nothing my cuz once said…so good its bad

  98. SOMEN somen
    SOMEN somen October 4, 2019

    james charles do meth

  99. Hailey Beauregard
    Hailey Beauregard October 6, 2019

    Say no to drugs that’s a big no no. But what can I say 🤷🏻‍♀️.

  100. Jalisco Boii
    Jalisco Boii October 6, 2019

    Stick to beer weed and coffee 🙂!!!

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